First Love.

Me: "So tell me about your first love."

Her:"My first love? You want me to tell you about my first love?"

Me: "Yes? Ma'am. Please."

Her: "I finally understood what love meant with him. He was my everything. He was my world. I loved him like crazy. He was the best. He always had a way with words. He knew what to say, how to say it, and when to say it. He was my prince charming. I am who I am because of him. He's the reason why I never gave up, the reason I never lost faith, the reason I smiled. He was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Now, you may say how can he be beautiful, the answer is that he just was. He was beautiful. He was a best friend. I can tell him anything, and he wouldn't judge me. I could tell him a secret, and he would keep it. We shared many laughs, smiles, fights and tears. His kisses. His kisses were amazing. They they they were so warm. Like a mother's kiss. Boy did I love those kisses. My mom told me that I was young, and that he might just be a come and go type of person. Boy was she wrong. He left, but stayed in my heart forever. I gave him my everything. I gave him my all. It seems so unreal, like a dream. As in I never thought I would meet the love of my life. But then, it all ended. My world crashed down. It ended. I let go of the most beautiful thing in my life. I was so hurt, I felt like it was the end of the world. Yes, I let go of him, but that doesn't mean I can't miss him. I was putting on a fake smile, pretending to be happy. But inside I was hurting. I had the worst pain ever. At night, I would cry. Every night. Wishing he would be mine again. Wishing he would come and hold me, kiss me, like how he use to. I felt useless. I begged him to take me back, but he was in love with some other girl. Being sad is all I knew. The feeling of rejection killed me. Loving him, made me feel stupid. I-I didn't know what to do. All I could do is cry. But crying doesn't solve anything. He told me to let go, but how could I? How could I let go of the best thing that has ever happened to me!? He always appeared in my dreams. Sitting next to me, and just being together. The worst part was waking up. Haha, boy was that hard. I love him I really do. I just can't stop loving him. I'm still hoping that one day, he'll come back to me. That one day he'll be mine again. That one day we'll share those kisses, hugs, fights, smiles, laughs, tears again. But for now, I cry. I cry for him to come back to me. I never cried like this for anyone, any guy of course. I guess he really was special. He is my first love. And he will always be."

Her story.

So I was reading a little "story" on abortion. It's about this nurse who works at this abortion clinic. She talks about how the abortions are done, the people who get them, how she feels, what the woman feels, and much more. The nurse says she sometimes can't handle it, so she walks away. She watches the woman's pregnant belly go from swollen to straight out flat. And what really got me thinking is how can she be there? Like she mentions a lot how horrible she feels, how she reacts when she sees the fetus of the unborn baby. There's this one thing she says. "Abortion is the narrowest edge between kindness and cruelty. Done as well as it can be, it is still violence-merciful violence, like putting a suffering animal to death."

Now me?

I think I'm turning into Jenna Hamilton from Awkward. I'm kinda going through the same situation she was going through with Matty.
I like this guy and he likes me back, but funny thing is that he acts like he doesn't know me at times. Like when we're alone he holds my hand and kisses my cheek. I think I'm somehow being tricked. Only thing is that what should I do to avoid this? I don't want to back away, cause I like him. Sooner or later I'll figure it out.
Hopefully later doesn't come so soon.

Not Giving Up.

So I've been through a lot these pass few days. I have gotten into a big fight with my ex. I've been upset because my mom is not here. I been praying to God to help me. Fortunately, He has. I'm not going to give up on Him so easily. I love Him. He truly has helped me through a lot, and me giving up is like him giving up on me.